Monday, July 9, 2012

My treasure : The Pictures!


When days pass you just tend to forget what you have been doing in the past times, days and years. People always make fun of the fact that I take so many pictures where ever I go. While sitting or eating, walking or even while sleeping, maybe I am too attached to my life, and that’s why I want to keep every moment that I live, very close to me. I know these moments will never come back, but I had a sheer pleasure to be able to live these is greatest feeling and I want to capture them and hope when I see these pictures again I will be able to live them again. It’s easy to live things at moment and then forget about them, but if u possess a memory that weak you might as well make effort in the present to capture the instance with picture or better a video to revive that memory in future. You might not be able to re live it, but it’s your life and these things help in never letting you forget those precious moments. Like when people break up and they want to delete all pictures, it’s the same thing! I agree with the concept. You should do that if you don’t want to remember someone.. you should delete all the remains you have of that person or times together. As,  if you do not do that at that moment, no matter how much you try to forget, if you come across pictures or belongings you will remember most of the moments of the relationships. Well when talking about breakups, not all breakups are that bad if you don’t regret the relationships, then might as well keep the memories. You can see I am strictly against deleting pictures, unless things are really bad, because for me it’s your freaking life, you have lived it, why would you want to forget it.



Pictures would not be as successful in making you live life again, but they can make you brush up and remove the dust over that feeling and remind you of your life, and make you believe its not that a waste , that you think like it is at the end of an era. That is one feeling I have after every 5 years when I listen to more interesting stories about lives of people and their experiences, good for them they have really great memory and they relish this without capturing and narrate and spread the message in form of stories. Bad for me I become jealous, like my second nature, and tend to question my life, what have I been doing dude??? Looking at people and thier life’s like that, the only rescue for me is to get back home and see my old pictures, Where I LOOK HOTTER :P and lived and done as much fun , and some times more fun than other people. My picture database is something I treasure, it’s my biggest depression come back, thanks to advent of mobile phones it’s not that difficult anymore, now its not just about the touristy places that get clicked with the digital cameras. My phone helps me click the best of yogurt I have had and record a beautiful song sung by a guitarist at a Mexican restaurant. It literally helps me capture every moment of my life. I Wish like how Shubham keeps a “N”number of hard disks, (you see the alphabet N , you see it’s in capitals!!!) I want to emphasize really, he has “N” number of hard disks full of movies. I want to keep all the collection of my pictures of life safe in the hard disks, and these can be N+1, I do not mind.



My father says don’t love life so much, the only reason you are afraid of death is you love your life so much and stay so attached to it, you cling it. BUT, I am not afraid of death probably, I know I m living my life to best I can and I have proofs of that in form of these pictures. Any moment, if death shall take me I wouldn’t be afraid, no matter how attached I am to  life at present, I will cling on to death then for good.









Friday, July 6, 2012

180 days of faith! begin.

Its amusing to me that how one of the best conversations i have ever had, ( when i say best i mean interesting and the conversations in which i spend all the time i have and i still feel "dint we just start talking about it") are the ones which start from talking about personalities and stupidly enough about start signs. I get really excited if some one i am talking to is a scorpion too. Today the same things happened, this wasn't the 1st time when some one told me i am weird in a good way. I have always believed in putting forward my point, my thoughts in front of people strongly enough and people just listen and respond you are the 1st girl i have seen who is like that... or may be they would start like you are the 1st girl i have seen who believes in such thoughts..Its always nice to hear those statements, no matter how wrong they sounded right now because i left them open ended but they always sound nice when people say them after hearing me out, and they them with proud smile on thier face. Ok! i might not be making sense by now as to what i exactly wanted to say but yeah its just a nice feeling so i wanted to start with the thought. I was may be singing and working like how i am ... and he said "So Sonal dont you always stay happy", i always see you happy and smiling, I was shocked to hear that. Not that i am always sad. but it funny that my peers feel i am always super happy because i was just normal and working. But that's the truth , I might have my share of sadness and i might crib about stuff that presently going on in life i do appear to the worlds one of most happy people around.And i he just asked my my start sign. I said "Scorpio". As soon i said that there was this affirming smile on my bosses face.He said i knew there was something weird in you that's there in me too. I am also a scorpion. and now i like you more :). With so many instances in past that i have talked to him i have always felt like asking him what was his star sign , not that i believe in it so much. but yes i believe in one thing "The Scorpion Intuition". So like i said mannier times before in discussions with him i have felt probably he is a scorpion, but i never asked. but today may be he had the same intuition when he saw me singing may be. Its just about  karmic connection the discussion got stretched from just start sign and personalities to life and karma and suffering and then my favorite topic of Laws of Attraction in the world and how you can get what you wanted . As i talked about it i realized how weak i had become in my own belief of this philosophy. Some where within me i have given up already . I have started feeling believing in the totally opposite and that is just taking me no where. My mother in the end of the day re affirmed and reminded me that i always said i can get what i want if i really wanted and in past i have proved it, that got it. All i need to do is start believing and from today on wards i re affirm my faith .I start a count down to 180 days of FAITH!!!!Shall keep you posted as i have my prayer well posted!!
Where mind is without fear ... where fetters are broken .....and my insolence is revered . You are welcome !!!