Screwing Affirmation!

Most of the times you end up hurting the one who is closest to you, you find out reasons to trouble and hurt the other, you never see yourself as a sadist, but may be you are. I have reasons why we do it. We do it for something, a reason very starkly opposite to the action exhibited. the reasons may be are purely sadistic but they are for affirmations. Affirmation that are important for us to keep us going. Different are the things when presence is enough for affirmations, the "reasons" that are now are not required when there is presence. The actions that are "now" are not required when there is presence. But to come to think of it the ways might be wrong but the intentions are always correct. Its not easy to deliver affirmations without presence. Its all in the belief and conscience. Its for you to believe , stronger you believe longer you can survive without repetitive affirmations. But its like a vicious circle the belief becomes stronger only after repeated affirmations.Lesser the affirmations lesser the belief. Nothing might be wrong but you would think ways to achieve it and then store it. Time and circumstances can make you selfish and you end up doing thing to keep your thinking process at place, no matter if you end up distorting the calmness of the others thinking process. In the long run if you see this way of extraction of affirmations does not good.even if you receive them you know you needed them and worked towards in order to extract them. May be you dint deserve them, may be the fixing of "emotions" the fixing of distorted feelings that you have to do toward the other after this extraction takes it away from you this achieved affirmation anyway.It serves no purpose as in hearts of hearts you know it dint come to you naturally. wish we could learn from this, but knowing this fact boils up more craving to extract the real affirmation and eventually screwing even the real ones you saved for good times!

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