Always Available-Web //// Busy- Real time!

You are not alone anymore and there is not one person around you to keep you from staying alone.I remember the days when i used to walk on the road and listen to music and feel music is my best friend even when i am alone.i was shocked to realize I am a part of this generation who acknowledges more to the other side of the electronic device.I entered and I noticed around 17 people in the college shuttle to just about metro station. I say it would be a journey of 10 min or so..All were sitting equally spaced and many got in together in a group and but chose to sit separately of course because there was enough space in the bus or may be because they dint want to engage in any conversation of any sorts for they had to be busy with the little device in hand the mobile phone!

I don't want to sound like those elderly non techi uptight generation who hate technology and have not been able to accept gadgets in to their life or the ones who really look down upon people who they think are posing to be modern. But sincerely the feeling was so true when I entered i was alone. but to my amazement none in the bus were. one was making a face looking at the Mobile screen , another was smiling looking the mobile screen, one was reading something maybe(i assume), another as typing non stop.They were all in tandem with the outer world, none of them even flipped to look up who is sitting next to them. none of them cared to strike a eye contact with anyone or pass a smile back. they were busy maintaining social contact online. I bet if the other person no matter how random it might be is on the screen of your mobile on your Facebook app you know it all, but if the very next day that alien person enters the same bus and sits next to you, you wouldn't even know.

Probably something that was thought as a gadget to keep people busy, to fill up the emptiness, the void is getting to keep people occupied for no reason. Its making people not look out and see the beautiful ride and pleasant weather while travelling in the bus. Its taking away people skills and adding to their qualifications typing skills. may be with these smartphone getting better everyday what we would eventually loose upon are the people skills.

I dont know how embarrassed i was that i looked up to notice this myself, or what i have done in that respect to not loose my human emotional self in order not to transform into a freak who is "always available" on the other side of the web and never in person.

But i do know i was the part of the same crowd until one fine day my phone battery drained out and i could not help but look around and observe this.

Screwing Affirmation!

Most of the times you end up hurting the one who is closest to you, you find out reasons to trouble and hurt the other, you never see yourself as a sadist, but may be you are. I have reasons why we do it. We do it for something, a reason very starkly opposite to the action exhibited. the reasons may be are purely sadistic but they are for affirmations. Affirmation that are important for us to keep us going. Different are the things when presence is enough for affirmations, the "reasons" that are now are not required when there is presence. The actions that are "now" are not required when there is presence. But to come to think of it the ways might be wrong but the intentions are always correct. Its not easy to deliver affirmations without presence. Its all in the belief and conscience. Its for you to believe , stronger you believe longer you can survive without repetitive affirmations. But its like a vicious circle the belief becomes stronger only after repeated affirmations.Lesser the affirmations lesser the belief. Nothing might be wrong but you would think ways to achieve it and then store it. Time and circumstances can make you selfish and you end up doing thing to keep your thinking process at place, no matter if you end up distorting the calmness of the others thinking process. In the long run if you see this way of extraction of affirmations does not good.even if you receive them you know you needed them and worked towards in order to extract them. May be you dint deserve them, may be the fixing of "emotions" the fixing of distorted feelings that you have to do toward the other after this extraction takes it away from you this achieved affirmation anyway.It serves no purpose as in hearts of hearts you know it dint come to you naturally. wish we could learn from this, but knowing this fact boils up more craving to extract the real affirmation and eventually screwing even the real ones you saved for good times!

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