absence!

When the feeling is there you are not there, when life takes a turn and i need to bend down and i need your help , your hand is missing. I know if you would have known that need it you would have come running and would taken me in your arms. But your presence no matter how much you try, would still be missing. I try to remember everything i can , so that when i talk to you , i don't want to miss a thing. You presence can be made available as much as i want i can. By narrating the incident may be you would become the same part of my life as you were. No matter how much i forgive the absence that will never go away and that's about it!

There have been times when i have tried to remember each incident as it was so that i could listen to what your reaction. the problems are never just ending its either the the way i deal with them has changed or the way update you that has change. But probably change is the only permanent thing. and Just waiting for more changes.