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a pre read thought -" may its one of those how to live a better life types of books which taught you what to do and what not to do"
and a post read thought .._ It IS , one of those books which tell you how to look towards your life...like normal, nothing extraordinary, yet in a diffrent way...
but somethng that made this peice of work special was....it does not tell you whats right and whats wrong , it has a guide book but its dosnt guide you. what it does is...it makes you break the world of illusions that u live in called^^ reality^^ for letting you know the reality ~of the actual world of ^illusion^!

a messiah who preaches , a messiah who follows , a messiah unguided~~ an messiah yet so reluctant.

" a good messiah hates nothing and is free to walk any path he walks" one the most powerful lines because of the part .. "he hates nothing". Hating is an act performed only when you want to perform it, when u feel u can do nthng about except hating. u sit there and hate the task itself. a good messiah would rather walk off...instead of sitting , waiting and hating. He has no time to hate.He is free to remain de attached.

"there is no problem so big that cannot be run away from"..-- i dont noe why i loved this one... not that i believe in it, but there is tottaly a diffrent way of looking at it...!!! it might have a negative connotation heading towards the theory of escapisim ,but to me it said.. like a good messiah would not look at a problem as a problem..if he wants to solve it ( run away or watver) he can solve it.!

the novel rotates around the fundamental concept of ^^loci of control^^...not in a way that you are the god and the world rotates around you .Rather it says the world is how u percieve it...you have the power to rule your enviorment because the enviorment is a reflection of your own self.you can control .
if u wish for somthng as small as a feather to a plane , imagine , think , so descreetly, so much so that you open your eyes and you find it floating in front of you. That is the power of longing and yearning that you realize the thing you wanted is there at that moment , and this satisfaction that you attain is much more , than what you would have attained when the real of it would have been presented before you. As the guide book says "" fictional characters are sometimes more real than people of bodies with heartbeats.


the book instills in you a self belief by making the "real world" a victim. at the cost of transformation from reality to illusion you step into a aura of confidence and power. "if you want freedom and joy so much , cant you see , its not any whre outside of you , say you have it and you have it act as if its yours and its yours"

it makes you belive every man is a messiah when u encounter a change in man who could say " i got to thinking wow, all i have to do is to stay with this this guy and there will be no problems , nothing bad will happen and all will be fine" into a person who who dint need any one excpet some rules of the guide book and the messiah in his dreams.

some lines which touched me the most were--
" if your happiness depends on what somebody else does , i guess you have a problem "

and

" stagnation can never be perfection , change is perfection".


"we can not die , we cannot hurt ourselves any more that illusions on the screen can be hurt . but we can believe we are hurt in whatevr agonizing detail we want we can belive "
and yet the messiah is killed because he was away from normal , diffrent , perfect becuase "he" was the change . and masses and the mob who thought alike , whose thoughts were the same and stagnant, thought of him as a black sheep.

but there is smthng which tells you by the end ... there is nothing right or wrong in the hand book of the messiah . its only if you want to accept it. that was all his learning and by the end would be yours too. he had learned to live and believe in what he had wanted .. that were his teachings and so he makes you belive that no matter what the "last line"of the "hand book" does say , time and space dimensions exist and its all an illusion .
but all said and done why did the cover say" adventures of a reluctant messiah"???

i kept searching for the answer to one of questions the messiah left unanswered " how can you choose a diffrent past?" literally or figuratively.and i realized i dint really learn what the book wanted me to by the end... you know why because the book itself told me " never to let a book replace my own thinking".

sonal...!