Thursday, August 29, 2013

loneliness = healthiness?

“I think it’s very healthy to spend time alone. You need to know how to be alone and not be defined by another person.”



This got me thinking, it got me to introspect, if I was extremely unhealthy in my mind?

I always thought if people are able to define you it is good.I think they observe you at different situations judge you, notice your actions and reactions. Not just that they act as a stimulus that instigates your presence. i though truest proverb is that "Man is a social animal". Man real self is exhibited when he lives with human beings. he gets criticism, he gets appreciation.Then who else can be a better judge of you? I thought if people define you and weather that definition matches you own judgement about you or not, it is nonetheless the truest definition. A verdict that given by many and impartially. 

Even though if I spend time with my own self all the time, I believe that the real me comes into action when i am with people, it makes me talk, express, laugh and cry. It makes me use my brain, which analyses and observes. It gives me reasons to think and analyse. Weather my existence is acknowledged or not i feel i am more with myself around human nature I feel my senses have work to do. They respond, react, act, think observe, ignore and so much more. Unlike times when i am alone, and it becomes extremely difficult for me to find things to keep me busy. I have to deliberately think of things to ponder on, things that would keep me busy, things that would emulate the presence of humans like TV and movies.. My mind is complexly blank and for sure that is not the correct definition of my self. If olivia wild thinks its healthy to be alone, certainly I am super unhealthy according to her. My body my mind feels a self numbness and according to her definition of healthiness this can become super suffocating. 

I am not sure what thought to go with, i always thought i am healthier physically and mentally when around people. loneliness kills my mind. but may be i have trained it in the opposite way...!!!


Wednesday, August 14, 2013

One the eve of independence day...but away from home!

Jai hind... Missing home on such a day... what made me feel closer...was singing an old school song that I used to sing with my choir group...while sitting on my couch after ....work on the independence day eve...‪#‎worldatlarge‬

Tu zinda hai to zindagi ki jeet mein yaqeen kar,
agar kahin hai swarg to utaar la zameen par, Tu zinda hai...
Ye gham ke aur chaar din, sitam ke aur chaar din,
ye din bhi jaayenge ghuzar, ghuzar jaaye hazaar din.
kabhi to hogi is chaman pe bhi bahaar ki nazar,
agar kahin hai swarg to utaar la zameen par, Tu zinda hai...
Subah-o-shaam ke rang hue gagan ko choomkar
tu sun zameen gaa rahi hai kab se jhoom jhoom kar
tu aa mera singaar kar, tu aa mujhe haseen kar
agar kahin hai swarg toh utaar laa zameen par, Tu zinda hai..
Hazaar bhes dhar key aayi maut tere dwaar par
magar tujhey na chhal saki, chali gayi woh haar kar
nayi subah ke sang sadaa mile tujhe nayi umar
agar kahin hai swarg toh utaar laa zameen par, Tu zinda hai.....
Hamare caravan ko manzilon ka intezaar hai,
ye aandhiyon, ye bijaliyon ki peeth par sawar hai.
tu aa kadam mila ke chal, chalenge ek saath hum,
agar kahin hai swarg to utaar la zameen par, Tu zinda hai...

Some memories just bring back tear to your eyes... i still remember not clearly but faintly how we used participate in flag hoisting ceremonies at school and feel so proud to be an Indian, march pst those motivating speeches, chief guests... 

these moments bring beautiful memories of my school.. thanks to myparents... probably i will never thank them enough..for the school they gave us....

i am sitting some 10,000 miles away from nation and even a thought that its 15th aug in india makes me watch swades all over again...even though when in india i dint do much about celebrating this after i left school... but it irks me to do something sp when i sitting this far away from home! 
Time flies... and these feel like distant memories...
Where mind is without fear ... where fetters are broken .....and my insolence is revered . You are welcome !!!